Perception is a very interesting thing. To you, you probably felt out of control and creating a distraction. I feel pretty confident that most in the room did not notice much at all and not to the degree that you felt. I know I barely noticed while I was there.

While not the same, I have a huge scar on my chest from open heart surgery as a kid. I literally don’t see if 99% of the time when I have my shirt off. It is freaking huge and about a foot long. I always get startled when changing at the gym and some guy goes “What did you do?” I look around at my hands and feet thinking I am bleeding somewhere or have a new bruise.

Then they ask about the scar and I am reminded of it. It did not enter my head even when I looked directly at it until someone brought it to my attention again.

Perception is a funny thing.

Rock on
Mike T Nelson PhD(c)

We all have reasons that we don’t feel like we fit into a particle group. However, in my experience it’s usually more self exclusion then anything else. Be assured that the day would not have been the same with out you.

Adam also talked about how “the elite” makes hard things look easy. It was easy for me to hang out with that many alpha males, nor three females weighing in at less then half of my current weight? Boy, did I feel every extra pound and every extra inch. I tried very hard not to need any special considerations. But when we got to the animal movements, (most of which I had tried and failed to do @ Brad’s Boot camp) that was my time to sit alone and watch the workshop move along without me.

I hope my personal discomfort over my physical issues were as un-noticed/insignificant as I found yours to be. Yes, the tics were there. Did I care? No. Was it distracting? No.

To me you seemed at ease in the group. A little distance during the lectures but during the demos you were right there with the rest of us. And I can not count the number of things you made look easy.

Rachael

Now if you had the habit of saying “like” every other word, I may have had an issue.