How To Have Tourette’s Part 12 – The Worth Of One Minute

by Josh Hanagarne on December 22, 2009

Thank you for this year.

If this didn’t make much sense, please start at part one of How To Have Tourette’s.

Whatever you believe in, spend the holidays doing something you love.

*The Gymboss may not actually cure Tourette’s, but it’s way awesome.  Here’s my full review of my favorite workout gadget.

Josh

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Steven December 22, 2009 at 1:01 am

Wow Josh. I may not understand how good it feels when you stay physically still for a minute, but it was enough for me to understand how much you enjoyed and wanted that peace.

I wish more peace in your life in the upcoming year.

Steven

PS: watching that one minute felt like watching a thriller movie anticipating something surprising lol.

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 8:15 am

Steven, it’s nice when it happens. Almost like watching Under Siege II!

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Allison Reynolds December 22, 2009 at 4:39 am

You are sooooo different and so smart ;)

I laughed at the end… great advertisement technique!

Have an awesome 2010

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 8:16 am

Allison, was that not the craftiest product placement of all time?

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Henri @ Wake Up Cloud December 22, 2009 at 5:43 am

You rock, Josh! These videos always improve my day and make my life better. This one was especially powerful.

Even though I don’t know you, I love you dude!

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 9:49 am

Thanks Henri. I never know quite how these will be received, but your comments always convince me that it’s a good thing to keep the series going.

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Boris Bachmann December 22, 2009 at 7:00 am

(What) Were you thinking during that minute?

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 9:50 am

Honestly, I was just counting down. While you don’t know how good it felt, you also don’t know how close I was to yelling every one of those 60 seconds. And after the video was over, things got worse. There’s always a price for shutting it down, even for one minute, but it was worth it.

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Kevin December 22, 2009 at 9:28 am

Josh,

I was sitting here cheering for you for the entire minute. I know the video was pre-recorded but I was sitting there saying “you can do it” “Come on” “You got it jsut a few more seconds” “go go Go GO GO, YOU GOT IT”

Glad you were able to enjoy the peace and yes awesome Product Placement.

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 9:51 am

It was touch and go. That minute felt like a loooooong time.

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Mathieu December 22, 2009 at 9:29 am

Wow Josh. This was wonderful to watch.

I join Boris and ask, “what were you thinking?”

What you regularly share with us is a true and undeniable example of how much WE can decide how we live our life. YOU decided you would have that minute, and we’re all here to see you’ve had it.

Keep it friggin’ up, buddy.

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 9:52 am

I wasn’t thinking, and that was what was nice. My constant need for distraction takes me out of the present a lot more than I’m happy with. I just got to sit there and be there in that moment.

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Chip December 22, 2009 at 11:10 am

Did you know that you were inventing a new spectator sport when you did that? The drama of watching you focus through those last few seconds was agonizing. I imagine that everyone watching had to be silently cheering you on through your minute.

Seriously, that was better than “Rocky” bro.

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 2:47 pm

Better than Rocky I and V, sure, and thank you. But I can’t abide comparisons with Rocky II, III, and IV. Sorry Chip! What are we going to call the spectator sport?

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Boris Bachmann December 22, 2009 at 11:11 am

Josh,
I’m curious what happens when you embrace/indulge a twitch. Is it possible to “be in the moment” during a twitch? If it is possible to be in the moment w. pain, how about a twitch? We’ve talked about meditation before, and I wonder if practice might “reveal” triggers and hot spots.

Just thoughts. I enjoyed the minute w. you.

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 2:46 pm

Boris, I’d say no, unless you could be in the moment during a sneeze. It is a constant reboot. “What was I saying?” “What was I thinking?” “Where was I going with that?”

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 2:53 pm

Boris, before I forget, my shirt just came. It’s awesome and it’s actually a little too big, so that’s perfect.

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Heather December 22, 2009 at 11:12 am

Congratulations, Josh! Way awesome! Is there a way you could stretch that one mintue into 2, and then work your way up to 5? Would that require “thinking”? Maybe it’s like doing a handstand pushup, and you have to build up to it. Congratulations! :D

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Debbie Ferm December 22, 2009 at 12:00 pm

I wish for many moments of peace for you in the new year. May your tics subside, and your kettlebelling (is that a word?) rock on!

Thank you for sharing with us this year.

Debbie Ferm

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 2:45 pm

I think it is a word. Let’s claim it.

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Sophia December 22, 2009 at 1:21 pm

Your gentle honesty gets me every time. A most splendid Christmas to you and a fantastic New Year.

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 2:44 pm

Thanks Sophia. You too.

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Philippe Til December 22, 2009 at 2:14 pm

Precious Present. Things we take for granted…

My racing mind wonders:
1) If you were counting down, were you not getting distracted by the action of counting down?
2) If you said you felt like yelling every second, weren’t you thinking, as opposed to your answer stating you weren’t thinking?

I know the meditative void can be difficult to achieve. I remember how you were able to sit almost throughout JDC’s marketing seminar at the RKC, but were fighting it towards the end. Am I being inappropriate for asking how the minute would have been if you didn’t exercise control over your urge to yell, for instance?

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 2:44 pm

Philippe, it’s not inappropriate. If I had not controlled my urge to yell, it would have led to yelling, which leads to hitting, which leads to injuries and chiropractors and dental work.

When I talk about distraction, I’m usually doing things that are very active, and if it’s not something obvious like playing the guitar, I’m doing the times tables in my head at the speed of light or something like that. Something like watching a clock doesn’t count to me. It’s so far removed from the usual tactics that I’m calling it in the present, whether it is or not. It’s close enough for me.

During JDC’s lecture, what you couldn’t see was that I filled an entire spare notebook full of doodles, a cube pattern that I started drawing years ago that seems to work. I’ve done this in every meeting I’ve sat in for the last five years. I also held a little spelling bee in my head, but I spelled every RKC candidate’s name, backwards, for anyone I could remember.

What you also don’t know is that I did not hear more than one out of every ten words JDC said. I have no idea what we did in that lecture.

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Johan Mares December 22, 2009 at 3:10 pm

Hi Josh, that was touching.
Have you ever tried meditation? It isn’t easy going from our busy everyday lifestyles to the blissful state of mindfulness, but some techniques can help. In a Universal Tao class I learned the Healing Sounds and the Inner Smile meditation. At first you need to pay attention for the movements and making the right sounds, but when it becomes routine you can do it without thinking and occasionally experience the cozy state of mindfulness. It can take weeks or months, but you don’t lack determination.
It may look a bit ridiculous making the movements and sounds, but for a man who shows off wearing a tight, pink, woman’s shirt that shouldn’t be an issue either. ;)

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 3:30 pm

Johan, I have tried meditation, without much luck. Here’s what happens, and this video is a good example. I made myself sit still for one minute. today I am absolutely giving myself fits and I’ve done quite a number on one of my wrists. I’ve no doubt that I could make myself go for longer, whether to practice meditation or whatever else I might like. I’m just saying that so far, there is a price to be paid for my experiments, including the (admittedly minimal) time I’ve spent trying to meditate.

I’m not saying you’re wrong. I’m just not sure how to get there yet without the cost.

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Johan Mares December 23, 2009 at 9:19 am

Josh, after seeing how much it cost and meant for you being able to sit still for a minute I wouldn’t recommend a sitting still meditation. I like to tease, but that would’ve been really bad taste.
Healing sounds is a meditation in which you make sounds and wave/stretch your arms or even push/massage the zones on your belly corresponding to the 5 elements (wood, fire, earth, metal, water).
Meditation is a state of mind, not about sitting still. You can use some forms of tai chi, there is walking meditation and I suppose you can achieve this whilst running or cycling too. Maybe even with kettlebell lifting. It has been too long since I was able to do a good workout, so am not too sure about this. If you ever experienced a trance like state when the whole world was reduced to just you and the kettlebell, no need to count, just going with the flow … congratulations.
I once met a vegan cook who said that preparing food was his way of meditating. He didn’t use a cooking book or written down recipes, he didn’t measure anything, he just did it. Delicious food, beautifully presented with even edible flowers, and he still had all his fingertips.
You know yourself best. I am trying to teach myself mindfulness meditation, but find it hard. Sitting still just causes my mind to wander all over the place. So I went back to healing sounds (active), and am now in the phase of mixing it with inner smile (passive).
My first experience of achieving this trance like state was whilst hiking, that was years before I learned to meditate and realized what it was.
Maybe you need a more active form of achieving this. I am looking forward to your article on the Zen of deadlifting. ;)
Merry Xmas to you and your family.

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paulandrewrussell December 22, 2009 at 4:49 pm

Josh,

I, like many people who have no real problems, suffer from self indulgent thinking and invent things to worry about. You, on the other hand, struggle daily and still find time to give of yourself to inspire others. Today’s video is awesome.

Thank you, and Merry Christmas.

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 8:45 pm

Rest assured, my friend, I still worry about plenty of other things that I shouldn’t. This is one of the few things I actually have a handle on! Thank you in any case, and Merry Christmas.

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Dave Doolin December 24, 2009 at 12:03 pm

Paul, we’re rowing the same boat.

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Mike T Nelson December 22, 2009 at 5:02 pm

Excellent work man! Keep up the great job and Happy Holidays to you and your family. It is amazing what we take for granted.

Nice promo at the end too!

Rock on
Mike T Nelson PhD(c)
http://ExtremeHumanPerformance.com

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 8:46 pm

Thanks Mike. whenever you have the podium, right? sell sell sell!

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Geoff Neupert December 22, 2009 at 5:21 pm

Josh,

Congratulations on all of your accomplishments this year! You truly are “the World’s Strongest Librarian.”

Please feel free to contact me if you ever want/need any help.

Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, etc.

Geoff

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 8:51 pm

Thanks Geoff. Great to see you here.

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Larissa December 22, 2009 at 6:27 pm

For some reason, I remember you writing, in response to someone’s comment, that you don’t mind people admiring you, but that you hope that they really know who they’re admiring. . .something along those lines. (Please correct me if I’m wrong ;) )
Anyway, your video today is yet another reason why I admire you. In a world full of people trying to cover up their weaknesses and insecurities, here you are, showing us minutes like this. Thanks for being real, and thanks for starting this blog. :)
~Larissa

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 8:52 pm

Sounds like something I’d say:) Thank you. Sincerely. I have way too many weaknesses and insecurities to pretend that they’re not there. whenever I’ve tried to pretend things are other than they are, it usually bites me.

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Casey Brazeal (North and Clark) December 22, 2009 at 7:04 pm

Merry Christmas Josh.

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 8:52 pm

You too, Casey. Does H is For Hombre play any Christmas tunes?

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Casey Brazeal (North and Clark) December 25, 2009 at 1:26 pm

HAHA!

We took a swing at blue Christmas at our last rehearsal, but we weren’t really built for seasons greetings. I wouldn’t rule it out.

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Adam T Glass December 22, 2009 at 9:08 pm

Sharp as a razor blade

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Wendy December 22, 2009 at 9:51 pm

I loved this video – like the others, I was holding my breath and cheering you on. This whole TS series means so much to me; it gives me hope for my son, that he will be able to do whatever he wants and that he doesn’t have to let it hold him back. That’s how you inspire us!
In the few times that I’ve been around you, I never realized that you were working hard to suppress your tics – so you’re very skilled at hiding it. I just kept thinking that I’d better stop saying that my son has “mild Tourette’s” because he’s twitching constantly and there you were, (I thought) tic-free.
As for the Gymboss…pretty nifty. I’m using an old kitchen timer with spaghetti sauce splattered on it. Might be time to get something new.
Merry Christmas!

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 10:51 pm

Wendy, when I’m with you in class, I’m usually talking, that’s why you don’t see tics. My case is extremely severe, I’m just so active that it can’t get much traction while I’m moving.

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Todd December 22, 2009 at 10:06 pm

I have never been so enthralled to sit and watch a video of somebody doing absolutely nothing. I got a little teary eyed there at the end.

I wish you peace for Christmas.

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Josh Hanagarne December 22, 2009 at 10:53 pm

Funny, huh? This is actually the first video of mine that I’ve watched. There was a terrible game show a few years ago called The Chair that had John McEnroe as the host. People had to sit in a chair and answer questions and also try to keep their heart rate down.

Then there were stunts called “heartstoppers” where ninjas would break bricks in front of the people’s faces. They had to sit there and try to control their heart rate.

Janette, my wife, said, “It’s not fun to watch people relax.”

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Mike Rinderle December 23, 2009 at 10:57 am

Great stuff Josh! Merry Christmas bro!!!

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Beth L. Gainer December 24, 2009 at 11:12 pm

Wow, Josh. This was a powerful posting. I hope you have many more moments of peace to come. I admire your courage and perseverance.

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Caren December 25, 2009 at 5:17 pm

Josh,
Awesome!

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Laura Cococcia December 26, 2009 at 8:08 am

Loved the video. You are amazing. A one minute gift of peace and rest.

PS – also loved the hat and the Gymboss. :) Hope you guys had a great holiday.

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Josh Hanagarne December 26, 2009 at 12:23 pm

Thanks Laura. We did.

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Jonas December 29, 2009 at 4:26 am

I found your site through Adam T Glass and I must say you’re an very inspirational person! There’s lots of good information on this site I have to go through.
I also have one question to you. I’ve meet a few people with tourettes and sometimes it feels uncomfortable. Do you have any good advice how to act in such situation when someone get’s a “tick”? Should I say that I know about tourettes or just act like nothing just happend? I guess everyone’s different, but I ask it anyway.

Thanks again for a great site!

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Josh Hanagarne December 29, 2009 at 11:03 am

Thanks Jonas. I have no problem with people asking about it, or ignoring it. If it’s obviously making them uncomfortable and I think they WANT to ask, I usually bring it up myself. You’re right, though–everyone’s different, and every case of TS is different, so I can’t speak for all of us:)

glad you’re here!

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john dalton December 30, 2009 at 6:34 pm

man your awesome, thats all i can say,

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Patrenia December 31, 2009 at 9:23 pm

Josh, I have never met you and have only started to get to know you about one month ago through blogging. I feel honored to have come across your path. You are awesome!!! I’m always inspired by the information to share! Happy New Year!

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Josh Hanagarne December 31, 2009 at 9:48 pm

Thanks Patrenia. I’m glad I’ve had a chance to start getting to know you. Big things for us both in 2010,

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eric gaudet January 11, 2010 at 6:09 pm

ironic… I too have been asked if I could ONLY have one wish that would only be for a day? what would it be??? my answer is always the same…. NOT TO HAVE TOURETTES for one single day… I am the same…. I would settle for even a minute….

I am writing a paper about Tourettes and Mindfulness… let me know if you want to read it…

check out my page please… my BLOGS explain my Tourettes…

http://www.myspace.com/tourettes666

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Josh Hanagarne January 11, 2010 at 6:47 pm

Eric, I’ll be following your blog. That’s serious business. Please let me know if I can ever do anything for you. If you contact me through the Contact form at the top of the page, I’ll give you an email that you can send that paper to.

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